Ever feel like that? Like something’s off… but you’re not sure what.

I’ve felt that way all day. Perhaps it’s the wild turn our weather has taken. Two days ago it was in the mid-80s with sunny blue skies. Yesterday it was a windy 80 degrees with errant thunderstorms. Today it’s 45 degrees, blustery with spitting rain. It’s weird to have weather. Especially when it does 180s on ya.

Perhaps its they way I awoke this morning; with the taste of a strange dream in my head. Bugs crawling all over my room, brazenly jumping on my bed and on me, dead wasps in my hair (how many ways can I say, EEEEWWW!!) and forgetting my ticket and i.d. for a tour I was taking…. How can a person feel in sync with the world after that kind of greeting from the morning?

Perhaps its the rather unproductive day I had. I had a list of to-dos that didn’t get done. I went shopping but ended up putting back most of what I picked up before walking out of the stores all together. I stood in line at Blockbuster for far too long before giving up on the slow clerk taking three days to ring up one person and put the movie back. I spent the evening alternately surfing the ‘net and channeling-surfing.

Perhaps its due to the unsettling way I feel today — kind of like I’m going to get a migraine, but it hasn’t arrived yet, and kind of like I’m coming down with something but it hasn’t arrived yet either. Bleh.

Perhaps its the thoughts dancing around in my head. Thursdays are the days (right now anyway) that I talk with my counselor. Stuff always gets churned up on those days, like walking through the shallow waters of the Med — all the mud gets stirred up and the normally crystal clear water turns a mucky dark brown. It’s good for my soul, but puts my mind in a tailspin. This week was no exception. I came away with confirmation and affirmation on some things I’d learned and done last week, but also came away with new things to ponder and learn and choose to put into practice.

Or perhaps…. perhaps the answer is f) all of the above.

I hope tomorrow is better.